This time last year I was laying next to your bed, in intensive care, being told that your kidneys have failed, your lungs were in respiratory failure and there was nothing more they could do for you.
Crying hysterically at your side as my body started going into shock to protect my heart from exploding. I couldn’t begin to image not seeing you everyday, not having you in my life for many many more years to come. I needed you. I was not ready to be without you.
The 14th of April 2017 was officially the worst day of my life. The day a piece of my heart died with you.
I miss you mum with every beat of my heart,
The pain i feel is indescribable, i hate being apart.
What i wouldn’t give to have one more hug,
One more kiss, one more moment of love.
That feeling of being safe,
Of feeling like you have a homely place.
To see your name pop up on my phone,
To hear your voice; happy, sad, angry or just for a general moan.
You never judged me,
You helped me to see,
A world of love and memories.
Always there to hold my hand,
To be my strength when i felt i was sinking in heavy wet sand.
You were my best friend,
My angel god send.
I hate life without you,
Its a lonely place without my mummy Sue.
I love you mummy with all my heart, i hope you are ok even though we are apart. i hope you have found grampy up there and aren’t causing too much chaos.
Thank you for showing me what strength and courage are and for the upmost love you gave me everyday.
You were my best friend, my pillar of strength.
I miss you deeply everyday mum!
I’ll try to keep making you proud.
I’ll take you with me on all my journeys and together we will take no shit!
I am so lucky to have had a mum like you, so caring and understanding.
You were taken from me way too soon 😦